Don't Trivialize the Math!

I was surfing the net today and came across an article about Willard Boyle, the man that co-developed the CCD or Charged Coupled Device (ie the imaging sensor used in almost all digital cameras) with George Smith. Nice stuff, he's Canadian (Boyle). My only disappointment is that the authors dumbed down the aritlce a little too much for my liking. When it came to describing how they developed the invention, the article describes it as:

They fiddled with some math and drew some sketches on the blackboard showing how this new device could be made. After not more than an hour and a half Boyle said, "OK, this looks pretty good."

If I could fiddle math like other people could fiddle the violin I'd be a (very) happy camper. I could care less about the CCD ray right about now.

I poked around the site where the Boyle article some more to find this, an article about a Canadian scientist that came up with a "Triple axis neutron spectroscope," for which he wond the Nobel Prize. What was www.science.ca's explanation of the development?

He fiddled with some math on his notepad for a while and then went to the coffee room. As he passed the lab that housed the radioactive nuclear pile, a controlled nuclear reaction that emitted one of the most powerful sources of neutrons in the world at the time, he wondered whether he could put it to use. In the coffee room he met Hurst. Brockhouse went up to the blackboard and said, “Don, there’s something I’d like to show you.” He sketched out some equations on the blackboard. The math described a device they could build that would use a neutron beam as a better type of spectrometer, a kind of flashlight that could probe into the mysteries of crystal structures and other solids such as metals, minerals, gems, and rocks.

Makes me wonder if I should've gone into the arts where I could learn a little more about "fiddling" and "sketching" mathematical equations. Really, I'm being sarcastic.

How did these guys get the math like this? and how do I get it? That's the million dollar question, literally. If you didn't get it: the Nobel Prize is 1 million dollars! Get it? See? [Har har]

Appartment Search!

I have 1 month to find a new place to stay. Currently searching with a Japanese guy and a gal from Calgary to find a new place to stay. Room mates might be fun, that is, if we can find a place to stay.

Doable, dunno. But we'll see how it goes. I'll post what I have learned with regards to appartment searching later on. But prices look somewhat comparable to what we pay back in Vancouver... for Sendai atleast and Sendai is very much like Vancouver population wise... also with beaches and mountains...???) Yeah, I really picked right, I'm living in the Japanese version of Vancouver sans the really pretty buildings we have in downtown.

Prices and my adventures talking with agents later on. First, I need a place to stay.

Wish me luck.

Need HP?

On sale, March 7th. Need I say more?

Breaking Molds

So I've been at my lab for almost a year now (well sort of), officially accepted in October but been dropping in since April. I'll tell you a story about my life in lab and I want to let you guys know, as peachy and as much fun as I look like I'm having, there are some rough parts to life too. Who said that life was easy, right? And remember hindsight is 20/20 and that you can make things look like anything you like in hindsight...

When I first came to lab, I shared a set of desks with 2 professors and a research assistant. These people come in at 9:00 am and leave at midnight usually. I kid you not. Before I was officially accepted into lab, I came in in the afternoon hung out until the evening and then left. What I did was kind of crazy (more like scary for a normal person in the lab to do). I'm talking about this lab culture (not to be mistaken for other labs!) where people don't take their backpacks home in the evenings, the reason is because if they walk out with their backpacks everyone worries that the professors will know that they are going home. Heaven forbid that someone is going home EARLY, you know, like *before midnight.* No, it's just because it just feels a little embarassing to them.

I will have you know that not all labs are like this. There are other labs where the people are very cool, very friendly and easy going. Hell I played a little game with another lab where people played paper-scissors-rock with 12 people and the loser buys ice cream for everyone. It's silly but lots of fun (like many things in life).

For 4 months I stayed at my seat. Hell, I know that I didn't get along with one of the professors. The best part what that I sat in front for several months and I almost always came in later than him and left earlier.

I always said "good morning" or "hello" when I came into lab and I said "good night" or "bye" when I left. No one in lab ever says "good bye" to their professors when leaving. Honestly, I was always freaked when I said "bye" for the first while. Later on when other students graduated from the lab or moved up to other seats leaving vacancies in other parts of the lab, I was invited to move to another seat. Why? Because my seat was always the most "stressful seat" to sit in. I declined and decided to stick it out.

Part of me wanted to move to get out of that seat and another part of me wanted to stay to challange this culture. I learned this much, to anyone that is good at making choices, you have my respect. Making choices is real tough stuff, especially when it has implications for later on. Would it be something I regret later on? I wouldn't know. But I don't now, so things worked out (the entire lab got reorganized and the professors got their own desks away from me :P).

People feel like that they have to be working hard here. Fun? What is this fun you speak of? Work does not necessarly have to be serious, nor do you have to be serious while you work. Comming to these decisions (conclusions?) is not easy, life is exceptionally subtle, I will finally come to realize (I used to believe when I was younger that life was inherently obvious). There are many things that we take for granted, why things that the way they are... sometimes you just walk into a place and accept it for the what it is and sometimes because you're pulled into a spiralling trap without noticing it. I couldn't accept that lab life should be so serious. Don't get me wrong that everyone in lab is really serious, there are always exceptions and there are times when a few people are goofy. But do I need to explain everything with precision detail? Use your own reasonable judgement here...

But anyways, I am on a little bit of a tangent. Too many ideas in my head, screaming to get out. My only regret about the written medium is that it's linear and that one idea flows from one to the next. In reality, ideas are like nodes that inspire many other ideas. Remember that... anyways, back from tangent x2.

I am stating to become known for being the most "light hearted" person in lab. I leave early come in late sometimes and I do my best to disregard this entire "stress" thing. So far the professors have been happy about my presentations (though, presenting vs doing lots of real work are different things) so I've got a little bit of an image that I'm riding on. Realizing this, it becomes more so evident that if you can do the work efficiently put out some results that people are happy with then the amount of time you're spending at the lab shouldn't be an issue. But wait, it takes confidence to do that... and sometimes these people are a little lacking in that department (as for me, I think I'm gambling a little :P).

From now on my main working objectives is to work effectively as possible so I can make time to go out have fun or learn things that I'm interested in. Enough of this "pretending to work hard" bull crap, because if you're spending long hours at the lab, getting no reults (note, it is common for people to fall asleep at their desks here) and then get rapped on if you're a little behind then of course you're going to feel terrible! If you don't realize why things are happening the way they are then it'll eat you up pretty quick. I already know a few of the newly arrived students feeling the pressure, but for the most part, the other students are doing just fine.

Yeah, I have to say that the first part of my life here was a little rough and pretty stressful. It's easy to forget about the stress when things start to get better but there are times that I haven't slept well because of worrying too much. My 1 year anniversary of being in Japan is comming up and it's going to be interesting to look back at some old posts.

Moving to another country has been quite the educational experience.

Return from a Road Trip! (Picture Previews)

I spent this weekend on a road trip with Mike, myself and Mona. The 3 of us decided to rent a car for this weekend and headed out into the country side. After much discussion we randomly decided to head west into Yamagata prefecture for the weekend. The red lines lines on the left map wsa the route we took.

None of us knew what to expect for this trip, but suffice to say, I have pictures to show and stories to tell. I won't be able to post the whole spiel today as I'm at the lab at the moment, but I'll post up a short preview of our adventures.

So I lied, there was a particular reason why we wanted to head West this time around. For the past few months, I've been hearing on the news of the immense amount of snow fall in the western region of Japan.

Our first stop, I made a return to Yamadera, the mountain temple which I went to back in November of last year. For comparison's sake, I took a picture in November beside a post box the first time I went to Yamadera which looked like this:

I came back to the same post box this month to find this.
See the difference?

It's really funny, all Japanese people I talk make the suggestion that I'm really used to the cold, that it snows like crazy where I come from. Sometimes, I'd tell them that all Canadians live in Igloos and we go by dog sled everywhere. Well, no I don't, but the thoughts have crossed my mind.

We climbed to the top of Yamadera to be greeted with scenery in white.

To the right, that's Mona. In the background, that's the view from the top of the mountain. It was breath taking to be there again in the winter. The next picture below is a shot of the icicles we caught on the way up the mountain.


After climbing down the mountain. We caught lunch at the local restaurant that specializes in hand-made soba. I had duck soba that evening.

After about a 2~3 hour drive further North-West through a mountain pass, we were greeted with snow banks that were...taller than me! Incredible.

I will a more indepth review of our trip later on (so I hope). I took about 100 pictures during trip. I'll need to sort them get them together and post them as an album when I get some spare time. Enjoy the previews... and also people that live in the country side rock.

Happy Valentine's day everyone.

On Writing

Note to audience: I am currently tipsy --> finished off about 400ml of a bottle of wine after writing a material science report.

For the past 4 days, I have been working on preparing a report for one of my classes which is a study of fracture mechanics from the perspective of grain boundary engineering of bulk materials. What this means is that all sorts of materials are made of little itty-bitty crystals mashed together to form a big chunk of material. Metals and ceramics fall in to this category. Stuff like wood, might not and that knowing how these crystals mesh together can determing how strong a material is.

I have been attending classes for the last 3 months in Japanese and I did not grasp much of the course unless I was drawing from a pool of previously learned knowledge from my material science course back at UBC. It was not until I started pouring over a review paper provided by my professor, which I had to write a report on as my final exam, that I would finally understand the fragments and the bits and pieces of information that I would learn over the year would crystallize in my mind (excuse the pun).

It took 2 days of pouring over a 9 page document (while falling asleep several times) then dashing over vast knowledge-scape of the internet over another day that I would finally understand the paper. After that I would spend 2 days putting my thoughts together in order to produce a 1,500 word essay on how manipulating how crystals meshed together would improve the strength of bulk material (ie a chunk of material made up of itty-bitty crystals). I asked the professor for some slack to allow me to write this report in English as I do not have the grasp of the Japanese language to write a Japanese technical document.

What I did learn over the week of preparing for this report was that it becomes infinitely easier to write about a topic that you grasp and have a point to make of it. Without understanding and a point to write about, making a report or writing an essay of any sort is *impossible.* It took days to finally understand what was going on and it took atleast a day of some random writing to realize what points I wanted to make (I did a very bad thing, in that I didn't write an outline of the points of what I wanted to say at first to save me the trouble... as I usually do, for formal situations).

There is a reason I am writing about this. I remember a time when I was in middle school (when those existed in BC before turning into a grade 8~12 high school system) that I hated writing, like most other students out there. Writing was a chore-- it took a considerable amount of time to write a short essay on something trivial (ie. something I didn't think important) and then get a sucky grade on it. There were some years where my essays would be hits and I'd get a good mark in history and/or English, but there where other times where they would be misses. I even had an English teacher come up to me and ask me why my marks in Grade 12 dropped compared to grade 11... I had to write the damn English proficiency exam at the end of the year (I forgot the name) to get into an English course for my first year at university. As an aside, I got my butt whooped on the grammatical section but scored the mark in the essay section to have all other sections of the exam waived and have me eligible for the first year English course (Engl 112, as I remember exactly).

Back then in High School and some parts of university life, I hated writing (much like everyone else at the time). Writing, is immensely hard and different compared to speaking, because when it comes to writing, you as the author become vulnerable to your readers. Unlike speaking, your words do not transiently disappear into the abyss, nor can you support your arguments to understanding people with statements like "well... you know," or "you get the idea." It is different because what you say persists and you say is open to close scrutiny to other people. No more are semi-vague statements acceptable, nor are fallous or frivolous statements welcomed. Everything that you need to say, needs to be thought out and organized in ordered for you to make a point. Writing is a very naked and revealing act.

I have a profound respect for good writers. Most ideas begin with a feeling, a sort of hunch or a twitch of the mind. But for many people, these sensations remain as feelings that something clear yet fuzzy and thoughts are often left in that state. Many people become afraid of writing because they are afraid of "looking silly" or some sort of argument like that. At first is kind of embarrassing, but like a baby learning to speak, mistakes are necessary and it takes practice to get better.

There are more profound benefits than to just being a good writer, in that I mean a person that is able to put thoughts into words in an understandable manner. It is also the ability to be articulate or detailed about one's own discussions, for we all know that the devils are always in the details. To be able to write well, it take s a good understanding of what one wants to say, then to find the right words to say it. It doesn't end there, but it also requires good organization to present ideas in understandable ways-- not only must you understand how you might understand something, you must also understand how others think to present things in an understandable manner.

To have some sense of writing, it becomes important to know what you want to say. To know what you want to say, you must understand it and the basis of knowledge that you draw from. Without this start, it becomes a perilous journey to produce any sort of coherent writing. From the students I have taught, some of them believed that if they randomly started putting ideas together that an essay would appear in front of them. I used to be one of those people, I paid for it dearly from time to time when I wrote essays that were a hodge-podge of roaming points (my high school writing philosophy was to write some random body first, then make an introduction and conclusion to fit whatever I patched together :P). Sometimes it would be a hit and others would be a miss, but I always wrote best when I was pissed-- because when I was pissed, I always knew exactly why.

All of my meandering tangents aside, being able to explain things clearly, especially in writing, is telling of how well a person is able to think and understand information. Being able to explain something with ease is in reality, much harder than it looks (and most often, underestimated). For that, people that can explain complicated topics with depth and simplicity are well respected... and that person could be you.

Resolution

Random note: This is my 103rd blog post since coming to Japan.

It's been a weeks since my last presentation to the lab about trying to make improvements and getting shot down by the German guy. His name is Jan and actually he isn't such a bad guy., he just needs work on finding less aggressive ways of giving constructive criticism instead of bringing down the hammer on someone that he doesn't think is on the ball (he sort of has a habit of this when questioning others in our lab meetings during their presentations).

Since that last week, we still have been going for lunch and dinner as part of our group, still talking and he invited me out with a Japanese friend from a company for dinner. There is no animosity because in general, I do believe him to be a fairly nice guy. I was just incredibly pissed after getting hammered by him.

On a Thursday night while working in the electronics building of the lab I decided to ask him what was up with him with those questions of his. Apparently, some lines of communication were crossed and we weren't interpreting each other quite properly. I was giving the presentation in Japanese that day (not exactly that good at making detailed discussion but I was trying) and it seems that Jan didn't entirely understand me (this is my second language, for him it's his third). After a few questions, he thought I was dodging his questions... he was asking me about one thing (which I didn't think was relevant.. and hence trying to steer the questions in another direction to show things in a different perspective) while I was trying to move the conversation in another. As a result, he thought I was dodging and has an instinctual reflex to hold someone's feet to the fire and kept hammering on one point resulting in gridlock. I used to be something like that, but have changed since.

To give an illustration it works like this (some of the Japanese presenters are horrible for this):

1. Presenter gets asked question from Jan: "have you considered what happens when you do blah-blah to your sample?"
2. Presenter says: "no, it isn't an issue."
3. Jan asks a leading question: "So tell me what happens to (property) blah-blah to your sample when you do something-or-other?"
4. Loooong pause --> the presenter has been caught and embarrassed and is looking for a way out or for the question to blow over.

Sadly this is very typical at our lab with Japanese presenters. It is my opinion that they are very shy of admitting mistakes (they have a tendency of being embarrassed) so instead they try to pretend there isn't one and keep moving on. It's been happening since I've started attending these meetings. I don't believe that people should be embarrassed when admitting mistakes or limitations in knowledge, it's a fact that we don't know everything... just wish that people are more comfortable with understanding the limitations of their own knowledge.

Now that we've got some dialogue going, we have both come to an understanding that this lab does need improving. Communication wise, better understanding of why we hold some of these meetings... I have a great example when one very annoyed undergrad student complained about why we had to attend weekend meetings.

I was told the same story he explained, that these meetings are to help improve people's presentation abilities for conference proceedings and questioned why is it necessary for us to attend. The prof immediately quipped back that attendance is optional and that these presentation meetings aren't for conference practice, it's to present your research in more detail to the professors so they can keep track of the students.

It's communication problems like these that are major problems. If people don't get what is going on and why things are being done then how does one know that objectives are being achieved? It's incredible sometimes that things aren't explained properly. Is this a problem of a big lab? I'm not sure but it's a problem.

It's problem like these that sort of bother me; it's like people aren't communicating or thinking. Jan told me that when he was here close to 5 years ago, that the students at the lab were much smarter, people were much more involved. He was telling me about all the fundamental knowledge that these people don't know, that and they assume that it isn't a problem. Knowledge isn't passed around and it seems that people are inherently ignorant.

This is a little bigger problem than I initially thought (ie more problems) and after thinking about all of this, I don't see the "big picture" of what is affecting what. Jan and I have agreed to find time to sit down with some of the students to figure out more on how this lab works and what are the problems and how to solve them.

Of an interesting note, some of these problems are cultural (if I can go as far as to call them that). Poor communication with superiors is often a result of students sometimes being afraid of questioning their professors (ie respect of authority). If the problems we are trying to solve end up requiring cultural changes, things might get even more... "interesting".

A Short Blurb on Ideas

I was just reading on Slashdot today and found this article about some people at UC-Berkley doing research on the connetions between language and thought. Whcih is something I wrote about 5~6 months earlier. It seems that this idea was thought of over 70 years ago 1930, otherwise known as the Saphir-Wharf Hypothesis (SHF).

It's just kind of amazing to realize that random people in different parts of the world and eras comming up with similar ideas.

New Year's Resolutions

I said that I would post about this, but haven't gotten around to it for a little bit, things keep comming up... but that, unfortunately, is an excuse.

I have reviewed my old new year's resolutions from last year... I've ripped the post and inserted below in grey below this post. I am glad to say that I have achieved the main objective of last year-- to get a good organizer.

I have an organizer for the computer that I swear by now. It's called Rainlendar and I've been using since October (and it's free too). It displays a 1 month calendar and shows what you have planned for the next 7 days, in addition to keeping a todo list on the side. As a result, I am able to quickly look ahead to see what is comming up, or look back to see what I have done. It can also run off a server (you can save your schedule on a different computer and access your lists from that computer).

As for my resolutions this year, I will list them below:

1. Complain less, do more (take more self-responsibility)
   
2. Set personal duedates for things that need to be done
3. Alot 1~2 hours/day as personal time

On complaining less and doing more:

It has come to my attention that I believe that complain too much (or have a tendency to be a little unsatisfied about many things). As of comming to Japan, I was first impressed by many things... unfortunately I haven't been quite disappointed by other things (and I deal with it on a continuing basis). I have reviwed some of my older posts and realized that I often dwell on many things that I find ineffective, gripe about why it is ineffective and then get a little disheartened at why things cannot be improved. This is not a very productive outlook and dangerous water to tread.

As a teacher at heart, it is my natural inclination to help others and share information. The problem is that I have become more and more indiscriminate in trying to improve things that others don't believe to be a problem and hence good intentions might be running into conflict with others or culture in general. In conclusion, I should not feel so responsible for the effectiveness of everyone or everything else. What is important is that I focus more on myself. If what I do works, then it'll show. If they want to learn it, then I'll be happy to teach. The emphasis is on the doing.

On personal duedates:

I had an interesting realization a few weeks ago when I was preparing for my seminar on Lapace transforms and frequency filters. I was deadset on trying to do so something completely different from the standard seminars done here-- I wanted a working demonstration of the presented theory in action. I had 3 days to get it working starting from a Wedensday to get it ready for a Saturday presentation.

When there is a will, there is a way. Without thinking, a 3 day plan was hashed out. I had planned to get the theory presentation down on Wedensday and Thursday afternoon. Thursday evening and Friday was for circuit construction. It was fortunate that I started early on the circuit because it turns out that the lab was short some parts which I had to buy. I would have never made it if I just decided to start on the Friday.

After that event, I realized that a drive to want to do something and setting a duedate to get something done is crucial to get things to materialize, else it's only good as a dream. Now the next trick is learning how to deal with planning a discovery based project, har har.

On personal time:

People here work long hours, it seems like they have never ending responsibilites or things to do. They work long hours and have no time to themselves. I ask them sometimes, what other interests do they have... unfortuately I haven't heard many answers. As for me, I'm starting to forget what my other interests were as more and more time is being gobbled up by lab.

To me, it's just healthy to make time to do other things. Things like reading, practicing writing (espcially in Japanese), exercising and pursuing other personal goals. It's not about getting a life, it's about keeping a diversified life.

Anyways, it feels like I've been aimlessly babbling so I'll end it here for now!

Last years Resolution post (from old blog):

New Years is a time of a new start and it is important to start off correctly. There is a lot I need to do and tradionally I'm pretty damn disorganized. So effective immediately, I am going to try and become more organized. If you want to know how bad I am, I bought a calendar in June and hung it on my wall-- the month is still sitting at August (I am sometimes hopeless when it comes to organization).

I am seriously looking for a computer based day/project planner. Recommendations are definately welcome. Something that can keep track of current/pending projects, task
management and a progress tracker would be awesome. Anything that can keep track of time frames of a month to half a year would be great. I have poked around a little but my hunt continues for the perfect planner... if worse come to worse, I'll consider programming my own :)

I took a look back at my 2004 New Years resolution and sadly the important resolutions were not entirely realized this year. A quick recap (copy paste from archive...):

Resolution #1: Remember to write 2004 from now on.
Resolution #2: Start executing projects off my todo list that I've been putting on hold for so long (some of my project ideas are several years old!)
Resolution #3: Organize and Prioritize! Fatal character flaw is that I always bite off more than I can chew. Gotta get a better way of keeping track of everything I'm up to else I'm going to over commit my resources and fry.

Read the Fucking Manual!?

I had to think twice before deciding what I should write down for the title of this entry. I've had several reactions from a single event today, kind of hard to discuss both reactions simultaneously so I've decided to focus on one reaction at the moment-- that is my semi pissed reaction.

I spent yesterday afternoon talking to the research associate on finding a way to better encourage information and skill exchange at the lab. Microelectric Electric Machines (MEMs) is a tough subject, especially when it comes to fabrication (design and testing are hard too, but I am going focus on fabrication). If you're wondering what MEMs is, it's about making really small things, like a miniature motor that is about the size of a millimeter, sensors smaller than a strand of hair, even measurement devices that can weigh the mass of a single atom. To make these sensors, we use a variety of chemicals and masks (think cookie cutters) to carve chunks of silicon into useful devices. The process is very sensitive and not well controlled and hence, it is easy to screw up!

In theory, theory and practice are the same thing; in practice, they are different. I can attend seminars learning about how processes work and what is available. There is a BIG difference between actually doing these things. I need that knowledge to useful work!

Sure the manuals exist, they tell you the basics, but you're going to screw up these processes and also you're not going to be able to do them in the most optimal manner at first. People with practice will know the details on how things work... like how not to contaminate your sample, know why certain materials cannot be used together; things that manuals cannot possibly cover in proper detail in one sitting, either that or it becomes a monstrosity where people can't filter out quickly the useful bits. Asking questions is useful because people filter out the useful bits quickly; they can show you how something works and even mention benign details that one might not think to cover in a manual.

More importantly, there are loads of equipment at the lab. More than 50 machines, a variety of processes on how to make things and software that people use to design stuff. A lot of skill is required. I know for a fact that many people are having the same problems as I, that problem being how do you learn to use these processes/equipment and how do you learn to do them well in a timely manner?

I have a problem that I faced recently. There is an electron beam system used to make patterns. I am told that the average person can get patterns as small as 200 nm, a good user can get it down to 100 nm, then it was recently published by a user of that system that he got resolution down to 50 nm! I then asked the obvious question, "How do I learn how to make patterns at the 50 nm level?" The response I got was troubling... "well you first read the manual, get someone to teach you the basics then you try out different conditions until you can get 50 nm resolution." I asked, "how long does that take?" The response, "Well that can probably take 3 days." What the hell?!

This is a problem, that there is knowledge that isn't passed around. There has got to be a better way of learning. So I spent the better part of a Friday afternoon talking with the research associate and a friend of mine on how to get people to exchange this information. There are 50 people in this lab, there is lots of knowledge floating around how do we find a way to exchange this knowledge? This problem is being worked on-- since this summer, a seminar series on how to teach people the basics of MEMs processing. The problem is that it's just a seminar, it's all theory... there isn't anything practical in it. I thought about changing that.

I thought that finding a way to setup a practical seminar would be a great idea. Setup a short lecture on the basics of a process or machine, then go in afterwards and have the person show everyone how it works, what to watch out for and what to expect. I felt, that would be way more instructional.

I came to this conclusion 3 weeks ago, after I gave a seminar to my research group, a group of 15 people out of the 50. It was on Laplace transforms and it's applications to analog filters. The math isn't so bad, but it takes a good presentation and summery to truly understand it. I even made a stereo equalizer system and plugged music through it and showed them how the theory was applied. I even answered some in depth questions (which is rare because people don't usually ask questions) and even showed some interesting points they should watch out for electronic circuits (ie bad circuit wiring...). The response was very positive-- I ended my seminar with applause from my peers, which is rare for seminars (most people zone out because seminars are usually very BORING). So I thought, "ah ha!" this is it, this is how we can learn better!

There is this German guy in the lab, very bright, fairly well respected, into his second year of his Ph.D. He made a presentation to the professors and his research group a month back talking about the problems of education, why this lab could be better than it is currently is. I sat in because the meeting occurred in an open space right behind my desk. I took his comments to heart, because that was exactly how I felt about certain things in this education system. So I was feeling good about preparing this extra presentation, that it might gain some support. But alas, it wasn't the hit that I wanted it to be.

I presented this morning. I had all of 4 slides. Make a short announcement, say 10~15 minutes get some feedback and it'd be over. It dragged on for an hour. It dragged on because the German guy was too busy trying to shoot me down and kept trying to put me on the defensive. "Well why don't you read the manual about [such and such]" he'd say. I'd tell him, "there are things that the manual does not cover." He'd tell me "don't you ask people for advice?" I'd ask him back "I do, but how do you ask questions about things that you don't even know about?" To me, these are not constructive questions-- this was an attack, ridicule, insult, whatever. People that attack in this manner do not earn my respect. I found this behavior to be... offensive (literally).

He even attempted to ridicule me by saying out loud how I arranged a meeting with him but delayed it for 30 minutes at the last minute. What? Are you trying to paint me as irresponsible? I delayed it because some people were going to teach someone how to use a machine and I even told him about it and he said OK. I was not willing to turn this conversation into a squabble over this, this comment was irrelevant but I knew it had other implications.

I got some support from the professors, not full support but some positive feedback. They also told me that it was my responsibility to learn some of these things on my own. That's fine, but it costs time to learn mistakes that others have made, I prefer to avoid that-- they're missing the point. There was no resolution by the end. The profs talked about writing some of the manuals in English, okay... I can mostly read the Japanese ones but they missed the point.

I told the German guy directly to set the record straight that I postponed our meeting by 30 mins because I wanted to go off and learn how to use one of the other machines. He told me "yeah I know." Good grief. "Yeah, Fuck you" I wanted to say.

One of the professors that didn't entirely support my idea had a seminar that day on filters and their group was like a boat with no paddle trying to go upstream-- no one knew what was going on. The professor didn't have a clue either... and he's a grad from the all-oh-so-famous University of Tokyo. The only reason why I was in on the presentation was because they do their seminar right behind where I sit. So I do the good Samaritan thing and help out and clarify the problem they had and show them some of the basics.

I decide to drive my point home by telling him and his group that I'd be willing to give them a practical seminar on filters and the theory behind it next week. He tells me, "I want to figure all of this out now." I shrugged and asked, "what else seems to be the problem?" He told me "Give me a bit, let me figure out the question." Seriously, that is what he said. I shrugged and gave him time... then at the end he tells his group "alright, could someone present how this equation works next week?" An American friend in the group, (can't speak much Japanese) says "sure, I can... could've solved this an hour ago but I didn't know what was going on," (for his masters thesis, he studied all of this stuff backwards and forwards.... see what I'm getting at?) I was shaking my head internally.

Hours later, I went for a dinner with some students studying English in my class that invited me over to their house. Feeling much better and now, I am here contemplating whether I should confront the German guy to figure out what was all that about. First he discuses this problem to the professors publicly about an education/skill problem... then shoots me down later for proposing a solution? Is this selfish ambition? Is it worth getting to the bottom of this and dealing with the implications of his actions? What is the aftermath? It is still worth getting to the bottom of it? Damn it, I'm curious.

Honestly speaking, if that was an attack on me and I have him figured, then he should be shot down for it. That kind of behavior should not be tolerated. The only problem is that he's considered the smartest guy in the lab. Dealing with equals isn't a problem, dealing with slight superiors isn't an issue either. But when you've got a guy that's leaps and bounds ahead in knowledge and skill while I don't even have 1/3 of that knowledge... while I might feel that I am holding the high cards, it just doesn't seem wise to play them.

Politics... bah. Things like this just gets in the way. I might not like it, but that's life-- deal with it. Well I am glad that I wrote this out. I have a better idea of what I should do now (did I mention that writing essays is a way to figure things out?)

I'm not going to bother confronting the German guy-- it isn't worth the fallout or the price of knowing. I'm going to have to learn the hard way. If I have a way to change things, do it bottom up (ie find a way that does not require the support of administration and the lab to support). If it works, then it'll catch on. Maybe, one day when I am further up the ladder, a top down approach might work.

So tell me what would you people do?

(2,000 words in 2 hours, I write most when annoyed!)

Rituals, Customs, Whatever

It's been an interesting week, which I have spent working on getting a mass flow controller hooked up to a vacuum chamber so I can get back into growing carbon nanotubes for a project that I haven't mentioned yet... but I'll do that another time.

The more important part, is that I've recently been talking to some people about how uncomfortable I've been in Japan when people are being just too polite.. it's something that is customary under certain circumstances, like when some certain middle aged or elder people treat guests or how some people deal with human interaction in general.

I was over at a friend's house last weekend for something interesting. I had the chance to listen to a Kabuki teacher and student do a short lesson/performance at a friend's place and dropped by. The family is obviously well off, the father is a doctor. I dropped in just after the lesson started (I wasn't late... my friend, Sachie, slept in while I was supposed to meet her in front of some 7-11 store). The mother was polite, excessively. She'd be on her knees bowing to the Kabuki sensei and stuff, I was cool with that, I've never been in that kind of situation before and thought that person was a really special person so I joined in with the on-the-knees-bowing mumbo-jumbo.

The teacher was real friendly, he showed me his music books and lent me one so I could follow along with the song. It's really old fashioned Japanese music, not something that I'd listen to (it's rather monotonic) but I'm all for new experiences. At the end of the lesson, after the teachers packed up and went. I stuck around for dinner, however it felt kind of odd; in the sense that Sachie and her mom was off in the kitchen fixing dinner while I hung out in the living room. I dropped into the kitchen looking for something to help with but there wasn't much for me to do.

Sachie brought out the food for me in very Japanese style (on the knees type) while I just kind of sat there because there wasn't much for me to do. I was feeling rather awkward about the thing; it just seemed strange to have a friend sort of waiting on me in their own home, I'd rather join in and help out.

There are many instances in Japan where people act all polite. It's sort of customary, since you can tell after a while where you notice people act in a similar way in certain circumstances. If you're a stranger in an office and someone bumps into you, they say something like "excuse me" using words that are exceptionally polite. They whip it off really fast too, like it's programmed into them.

For the young generation, those below their thirties this isn't a problem. But the formal part of Japanese life starts to take control once people start getting into their middle ages. The problem is that life starts to become more and more scripted when you just start to follow customs. Japan isn't unique in this respect. Think of the Feudal age in Europe with Lords, Knights, religious figures and more. It would be a (literal) disgrace to not follow custom when dealing with nobility. The only difference between modern Japan and the European Feudal age pretty much everyone is treated with the same sort of customary "grace." This is unfortunate because individual personality somewhat diminishes.

I met an American a while back in a semi-conductor tradeshow and he told me something that stuck in my mind ever since I heard it. His words were along the lines of "I might not be able to speak for all Japanese, but most of them are exceptionally polite, but they aren't entirely friendly." In a sense, this is a very good interpretation as to my opinions of the Japanese people. When you do get to know people intimately, however, they do become very friendly... but I'm going off on a tangent here.

The problem about being customary is that it doesn't necessarily have to represent the real feelings of a person. Watch some TV in Japan, there's probably some corporate problems going on, for example like a corporation not meeting profit expectations of the shareholders. The CEO resigns and the entire board comes out on TV makes a public apology then makes a solemn bow. A Japanese friend of mine I was talking to was telling me that most of it is an act.

That comment had an impact on me-- how do you determine the real feelings of a person? The solution to this problem is simple, you just watch what that person does.

A person is not reflected by the things they have to do but by the things they choose to do.

I believe this is true for understanding people in general, not just for looking at the Japanese. It is also true for finding love.

Getting Work in Japan

Getting a job in Japan is really quite different compared to getting a job say in Canada or in North Amerca in General. My experiences in Canada were that you would go and hunt for one on your own, looking through job websites and companies that have posted online that they are looking for people. Then you'd just fire them over a copy of your resume and a cover letter telling them why you are interested in working for them.

In Japan it is kind of different. They way things work in this country is that people go to University (maybe they might study), then about a year before graduating they attend job fairs in Japan to check out prospective companies and then use a matching system that is a part of the University to land them selves a job. Almost all students from a University get placed using this method. The one significant down side is that they have no job finiding skills.

The interesting thing that sparked all of this was a conversation I had with a friend of mine in one of my classes. He asked me if I was planning to get a job (he is also a masters student) because this was the time of the year to start looking and getting prepared (all of this is done in a year in advance! I think it's way to fast btw), so I told him that I haven't decided yet. I am still doing some thinking on the matter. But I told him in the end that if I were to get a job in Japan that I'd probably get one and work here for a few years and then move on. He had a bit of a shocked reaction.

There is an image in Japan that when you get a job in a large company that you would work there for a really long time, pratically for life in many cases. Meaning that my perspective about jumping from company to company is, literally, quite foreign to them. The idea of company hopping or something like that has a bad image in Japan. From what I have heard, it means that for you to leave a company, there must have been something wrong with *you.* Do it too often and companies will be afraid of hiring you. Sure that is something I can agree with if put into excess, but what about working in a place for about 4~5 years and then moving on to a new company? That idea is also quite foreign to them but it is starting to gain some acceptance from what I've heard... how much, I really don't know.

In North America, I do know from what I have read, it is quite common for people to change jobs every 4~5 years, even total career changes during those times. I'm all for that since I'd get bored doing the same job for too long a period of time. Can you imagine, working at the same place for 40 years until you retire? I can't. But being able to find other jobs that you are capable of doing is very important from my point of view. I'd rather not be entirely dependent on a single company for my livelyhood because it's not safe. Who knows what the face of technolgy will look like in the next 40 years? Let alone in the last 20 where computers have revolutionalized the way we do things. Who knows, one day you might be out of a job... instead of panicing about it, I'd rather know how to catch other jobs and hop back onto my feet.

A Short Photo Update

There is a blessing to having a digital camera; its that it remembers dates for you of when you did what. I have a program that came with my Casio camera that makes a pretty nice album library of images organized by date. I may have to move to new general piece of sofware now that I've moved to another camera.

November 11th 2005: Volunteering at international fashion show. They were short on models and the news got sent to me that they were looking for some "models" (ha!). There wasn't much of a choice to make; YES! And that was that. The organizers had clothes from all over the world, lots from South East Asia from parts like Malaysia, Indonesia and such. The organizers told me that they needed a guy to wear a kimono and so that was that. The pretty girl to the right is from Taiwan. The kimono she's wearing is over $10,000! The belt alone (imbuned with gold and silver) was $5,000.

The next photo here is all the other volunteers that took part in the fashion show. The theme was to have everyone from different parts of the world to wear clothing from other parts of the world which came out to an interesting effect. I thought it was great. There is a wonderful plus to living like this in Japan. The international students are a microculture living inside a foreign culture. Most of these people came out for a reason, to learn about new cultures (Japan in particular)... we got way more than we bargained for.


November 24th, 2005: Canada Presentation

A friend of a friend studying education at one of the local education colleges in Sendai that was looking for a foreigner to do a presentation to the students at the local elementary school. So yep, I decided to pitch in looking to see a little what Japanese schools and kids are like. I'll tell you this much-- they're really, really, really, really energetic. I would think even a little more than the kids back in Canada.


I tried taking a picture of the kids lining up getting ready for the teachers to lead them into the auditorium where I'd be making my presentation. I got one blurry snap, so I decided to try again. They noticed and before the my camera could finish writing the last picture into memory, the kids were in uproar to get themselves into the picture and this was the result. Cool eh?

There is one question that puzzles me a little. It's that children in Japan after getting older have a tendency to get way quiet. Get into an elevator with them and hardly anyone makes small talk.

December 19th 2005: Snow in Sendai.

he North East parts of Japan is currently facing records amounts of snow being dumped all over the place. From ther people I've talked to, it got particularly cold this year. Over the span of 2 days, we had about 30 cm of snow dumped all over the place. I'm still riding my scooter through the snow and ice thanks to my spiked tires. It is still pretty damn slippery and I've seen people wipe out. The trick is to not go fast in snow and over ice and it's smooth riding (for the most part). The plus about having snow dumped down like this is that it a great tale-tale sign that ski conditions in the mountains will be great (and great they were! A story for another time).

December 24th, 2005: Chrismas Eve Dinner

A Chrismas dinner held by the international students. The best part? Potluck! Chrismas music, gift exchange, good people and good food. There wasn't much more I could ask for. I got the invite a little late (it's hard to get word to me about events because I spend too much time at the lab.. and spend most of the time back at the dorm sleeping) so I didn't participate in the gift exchange. The food was great. I had samplings of Pakistani, German, Korean, Japanese, French and food from a bunch of other countries. Hmmm, serously we need to do some international cooking lessons!

Camera Investment

I've been in Japan for 6 month, been to Taiwan and already been on several adventures. If there was something I was lacking, it was a decent camera for me to properly document my travels. My old camera (yes, this means that I have a new one) is a Casio Exilim camera which it atleast 2.5 years old. It's 2 megapixels with no zoom meaning that I'm only good to take close up pictures or scenic shots. Getting extreme close ups and taking medium range photos with detail was an impossibility.

I had the fortune of seeing what a real good camera (with a really good lens) can do after my trip to Yamadera (Mountain temple) during the autumn leaves season of Sendai. That photo was taken about 2 stories below with a telescopic lens. The guy knew what he was doing. I was smitten.

2 months later, after the end of the big "first sale" event of Sendai, I had stopped by the Yodobashi camera store looking for a deal for a good new camera. By 9:00 am, when I arrived, they were sold out of their cheaper cameras, leaving me to look at the more expensive ones. After some more research, I decided on a Canon EOS 350D camera and ordered one from Tokyo. The purchase would set me back about $1,000. But I saved $200 instead of buying the camera from the local Yodobashi Camera retail outfit. That's the power of the internet folks. For those living in Japan, look up www.kakaku.com for what you are looking for. Quite often you can find things online for 15%~20% cheaper than paying full price.

My camera arrived yesterday and this is what it looks like.

Here's a picture of my new camera (taken with my old camera :)

Here are some of the pictures I took today of my room:


Soysauce close up


Bottle of red wine


Posters on my wall

Initial reaction

My first reaction to this camera is a little overwhelment with all the features. It's not a bad thing. I'm usually good with technology, the only problem is that the instruction manual is all in Japanese. It's going to take a little time for me to sift through all the information... else I'll break down and find an English version somewhere. The camera comes with a set of preset shooting mores including: protrait, senic, sports, night, no flash and close up. There is also varying levels of manual modes where you can play with the arpeture sizes and shutter speeds/exposure times, white balance, color filtering and plenty more. I'm going to have to play the camera

The auto focus works pretty good with the camera being able to focus on a target in about half a second. I hope in the near future, I'll be able to post some great photos of life in and out of Sendai. Which reminds me... I have a back log of photos to post...

He never showed

2~3 weeks ago. I ran into one of the post-docs over the winter holidays while eating at a restaurant back in Sendai after getting back from a great ski trip. He's from France, and that evening, I learned from him that he would be quitting his position at the lab and heading for Europe for an interview for a new position. I was happy for him, though he seemed rather quiet that evening... he even offered to sell me his car, cheap, for $600.

A few days later, I was at the lab working on something over a weekend. I don't remember what, but I was there doing something. I was almost finished for the day to head out for a movie with friends in the evening. I wanted to see Mr. & Mrs. Smith which was released about a month ago in Japan. The post-doc guy was around packing and asked me to come with him for a little bit to the post office to help him send off some of his belongings. He then told me his real reasons for leaving... but I was rather stunned, to say the least, to hear what I heard.

During the drive to the post office, I was told about how he didn't feel secure in this lab. He thought that people didn't like him at this lab. He took a 3 week vacation a while back in the summer. He told me afterwards that he had the feeling (or was told?) that the professors thought that he took a little long of a holiday. He felt guilty about it. It's true, sometimes the Japanese have this impecable ability to make other people feel guilty. Sort of an aside here, but sometimes they don't tell you things straight but there are times where you can read through them... and that was probably what he was sensning. He decided to work harder to catch up and try and not disappoint the professors and then from here on in, it's an obvious downhill story from here on in.

He worked hard, pretty damn hard he said. But somehow he could never impress or make the professors happy. I think that's one thing that's true about Japanese managers, is that they don't know how to give compliments. His theory was that if people started hearing that he was getting compliments/praise from the professors then other Japanese people in the lab would get jealous. His reasoning is that because the Japanese people work so hard (well the people in this lab atleast) that they would get jealous of him because they don't often hear these nice things from their professors. He did one day eventually hear a nice thing from one of his professors... the only problem was that be became paranoid of what the other Japanese students thought of him.

The ball kept rolling... down hill. He got uncomfortable hanging around the other Japanese people in the lab. His desk was in another building where there are less people (like 2 out of the 50 people in the lab) and he decided to hole himself up there for atleast a few months. He didn't join the rest of the lab for lunch or anything. He also started growing a paranoia of the other people at the lab. He felt that they were talking about him... but he didn't know about what. He thought that perhaps they were saying bad things behind his back and he didn't feel that he could trust them.

There's more to it too. Apparently Japan compared to France, their lab safety conditions aren't up to the same standards. The postdoc guy was pretty frank about it. The only problem is that changing how things are done in general is a slow processes. But he kept pushing but was getting no where with it. "What up with that??" At the sametime, he started feeling like the professors were pressuring him more to get more work done because he disrespected them some how and they were out for vengence (and some how they had this plot that they'd grind him down by pressuring him more and more to produce more work). While I am typing this, this story just seems really absurd, but to him, he thought it was a fact of reality.

So at one point, he finally snapped. He had to get out. Within in a week of hearing that he had an interview for a new position and that he would be leaving this lab (talk about counting chickens before they've hatched), the profs recommended that he stay to finish off his project before he left. But he was intent on leaving. He would hear later from the people he would be interviewed by that they had found a potential candidate for the position. His mind jumped out at the possibity that the director of the lab called in to the lab at Sweden to tell them that he wasn't a suitable candidate or something (apparently he didn't list him as a reference).

Paranoia eating at the poor postdoc.

I helped the guy packup, invited him over to my place for dinner. I dropped a messege to another labmate living at the dorm about his condition and that we'd be stopping back for food. He also made some brownies for us while we ate on some turkey stew, we spent the evening comforting him and trying to dispel his paranoia.

I had left my scooter back at the lab since the post-doc was heading back there to collect a few more things, I went with him and spent more time chatting with him. All sorts of paranoias of people not liking him or things working against him came popping out. It's easy to think like that when you don't trust people. In a foreign land, without the ability to speak or understand, you're even more so at the mercy of the people around you. I kept telling him that things aren't like that. Why would a lab spend money on a post-doc just to keep him around and crush him into submission is beyond me. Absurd, I tell you. I told him that too. By the end of the evening, it felt like we came to an understanding, things were clear. I was happy and then went home.

Several days later, I would meet him again during the boxing day of Japan on Jan 2. He was with the Taiwanese gang of the lab, they were all out doing some shopping during the "first sale" event in Japan (read: things sold at discount!). We hit a place for dinner, he was his same old paranoid self. I was rather annoyed about it. It was a little worse this time... he wanted to justify his paranoia. In honesty, I was starting to get a little pissed.

How this guy would decide, around the 4 other people sitting around the table, that people at the lab didn't like him. On several occasions he has spent entire afternoons and late evenings with people with the lab to let off steam. "It didn't make sense, it was silly! A farewell lunch was even organized for you! How can you not see this!? This is inanity!?" that was what I was thinking. I just couldn't see how he could still see from his view point... how could he be so blind?? We talked and talked, but it just never sunk in to him.

Several days passed. Last Friday was the date of his farewell party. The professors showed along with about 12~13 other people that were still around Sendai (the lab was still on holidays). His supervisor has a present for him. The post-doc never showed...

Sucks to be sick

I came down with a terrible stomach flu yesterday. I don't know how I got it, but it hit me like a 800 pound gorilla. I went to bed the night before and then I woke up the next day, horribly sick. If you would like to know, my stomach has atleast about a 2.0 litre capacity for food. Because I drank 1.5 liters of juice (something in Japan called Calpis which is a sweet yogurt drink) and had an apple for breakfast... then it all (and I mean *all*) came out. I was worried at one point that I'd clog up the sink, that bad. Muscle aches, fevers, strong stomach acid. Not a very plesant day it was yesterday.

That's the one thing I didn't really have my bases covered for life in Japan, me getting sick. All I had was a bottle of Aspirin I brought with me and some anti-biotics I kept around, given to me from a friend a while back. I would have gone out to buy some medicine but we had a wind storm in Sendai, took out the internet connection for the better part of the day.

As for today? I'm doing much better. Less pain, I can eat more bread and the fluids I drink stay mostly down. Picked up a book given to me by a friend and went through about 130 pages in about 2 hours. (I read at about 1 page/minute for a paperback). Started some downloads for some books to read on my computer and took a hot shower.

As for tomorrow? Well I hope I'm back to normal. I have a farewell party to attend. It seems to me that the stresses of Japanese life had gotten under the skin of one of the post docs here and sent his mind for a spin. I'll have to comment on my understanding of Japanese working life later on but for now... I need to get better.

Costs of living in Japan (and on your own) and the value of time

I started logging data of living expenses in Japan since I arrived and now, 9 months later, here's a little something for me to show what living expenses in Japan look like. Click on the image below for a close up.
Currently the Canadian dollar is really strong at the moment meaning that $1 is equal to 100 yen. Over 9 months of living in Japan I have logged 1,136,142 yen worth of expenses. Factoring in the exchange rate, I've spent $11,261 CAD living on my own. On average, I've spent about $1,231/month. Just as a note, my real average is lower than this because I have included a trip to Taiwan in these expenses that ran me about $1,000 bucks for a week.

What have I learned from this data? Well on average, I am spending on average about $10 a day on food (this is with eating out nearly everyday since I can't find the time to cook as often anymore) and that rooming fees cost me about $160 a month (but that is because of the really cheap rent). I will be expecting this cost to increase by $200~$300 when I move out, thus reducing the amout of "disposable" income I will have to play with.

With this information in mind I am able to guess that it costs about $16,000 ish/year to live on your own somewhat comfortably (I could say that my living conditions are pretty comfortable). Just remember that I'm talking about after tax dollars here. Given that Canada (depending on your tax brackets) can hit tax ranges from 40% and 50% (as a guess), you're going to have to earn about $27,000/year (at 40% tax). Take this figure as a bare minimum since you're not saving any money into your bank account. Now, if you're looking to save some cash in your bank acct, say something like $500/month or $6,000/year, then you're going to have to earn $10,000/year extra at 40% tax. In total, you're going to have earn about $37,000/year (pre tax at 40%) under these conditions.

There is a great advantage to learning how to manage finances like this and that is knowing what NOT to buy. Just recently, a friend of mine is returning home to France and has a car to unload. The asking price is exceptionally cheap (read: $600 for the car). After adding insurance, tax, parking and gas over a 2 year period, I calculated that a car would run me an additional $200 bucks a month in costs. Suppose that you are currently saving $500 a month with your current income, you would realize that after buying a car (in this calculation, I didn't include the cost of just buying the car!) that your disposable funds would decrease by 40% (or say by about half!).

I have to say, I was very enticed by the purchase since I'm riding on a scooter through chilly winter air (in wind, rain, snow and more). Wouldn't it feel nice to ride in a car, that's heated, that can carry friends and large goods etc etc? For what it's worth, for all the time I spend travelling outside, taking a ball park 40% loss to disposable income isn't worth it. That's how the math works out.

There is more to this information than just knowing how to make purchases, but knowing how much you need to make (and as a result, what kinds of jobs you should aim for). The math from here on in to figure out what kind of wages you need to achieve say a $37,000/yr life (assuming a 40 hour work week) is about $18/hour. Compare that to what many malls pay university students (ie. In Japan, kids are paid $6~$7/hour for working in stores).

To be honest, it hurts to see people paid that low (and this is turning into another essay but I will continue a little further) because if you think of it like this, suppose that you want to make $100 bucks for a pair of new shoes. Ignoring tax, you're going to have to work 17 hours to get enough for that pair of shoes. Tell me, do you want to work 17 hours for a pair or shoes? I'd try to make my own if that were the case-- I'd come out with a pair of shoes and come out with the ability to make shoes. If there was something that we as people were never taught, it's how to value time.

With knowing how to value time, you also learn how to value yourself. Because if you want a basic $37,000/year life you're going to have to ask yourself "what can I do to bring $18/hour (or more) of value to people?" If you don't know how to answer this question, you'll be working for $7/hour for the rest of your life. *Value your time*

Where'd it go?

Happy new year, 2006 right? Year of the dog... da da da more info about my new years later (and the delayed resolutions post comming up later too).

It's a break, but I'm still finding myself occupied. Gone skiing, cooking and attending seasonal parties. It's a tough life, really. Today is sort of my first break of the slew of things that have been going on.

So anyways, right into my post shall we?

If there is one thing that people remember me for, it's for forgetting. The last month was the most interesting in terms of forgetting. I have so far, misplaced 2 pairs of gloves, my binder of notes, left a pair of ski boots at a resort (which is scheduled to arrive via shipment today) and then dropped my cell phone into about 50 cm of snow from one of my side pokects (well this event was just kind of unfortunate).

Aside: After spending a day to search the snow for my cell phone, I gave up the search and decided to buy a new one. I got an e-mail right after buying the cell phone that it was found... I would return a day later to try and return the new cell phone but alas, the store does not take returns on cell phones. Just my luck eh?

After tallying up all the damages from last month, I've probably ran about $200 worth in misfortune. Well life goes on I guess... but $200 is still nothing to sneeze at. One of these days, I was thinking of writing a little article on the "Time value of money." For those that studied economics, some of you might think of Net Present Values and Future Values, but I talk about the time value of money, I think about neither, but that is a discussion for another time.

So what have I learned? My old cell phone survived a scooter running over it (I can see tire tracks on top of the cell), $7 gloves suck against prolonged exposure to the wind. I spent $25 for more expensive gloves, which are thicker and use a material called theminsulate... those *also* suck against the wind (when I talk about wind, I'm talking about sub-zero wind temperatures blowing against the hands). Having ski boots shipped about 150 km costs $13 bucks.

So in the end, even though I am $200 in the hole, I did learn a whole bunch about gloves, cell phone robustness and shipping costs. I'm not at all against paying a little cash for knowledge... there's an upside to everything.

The New Years is comming!

Well in less than 10 days, this year is going to come to an end... and you know what? It's that time of year again to make new years resolutions. Yay, actually, I'm kind of looking forward to making some new years resolutions (NB: don't let New Years to be the only time to make resolutions btw).

So what do I have in store for the resolutions? Not so sure yet, but I have a general idea... but I'll post it when I have them down. Also the other interesting thing is that I have my old resolutions on file from the psat 2 years on my computer after hosting my old blog. I'll make the post first and make a comparison of my resolutions compared to the past 2 years. Interesting food for thought.

Anyways, here's looking towards 2006. 2005 was a great year, just hoping that 2006 is just as good.

Time to get ready for the Lab's pre-new year's party (they really don't have x-mas parties here... they have pre-new years parties instead.

Season's Greetings.... and Farewell Firefly

I have no sense of time at the moment. Life, as usual is operating on a week by week basis. It snowed a few weeks ago and now that I'm looking at the date, it's almost Chrismas. Where the hell did time go? I know this for sure-- I don't have time to send out x-mas cards or do any real sort of holiday season preparation. I have learned something thus far-- if you're going to work hard on something, there had better be some value that you're going to get out of it at the end, or by the end, you're going to feel robbed... and you are going to feel robbed of alot of things. Fortunately for me, it hasn't come down to that. You just gotta deal with the mechanics of study, work, experiments and knowing what you want at the end. Simple... sort'a.

So Chrismas is comming up, it's a week away. Officially the lab doesn't close until the New years, but I'm taking the days starting from the 26th off. I'm tired and all I want to do at the moment is crawl into bed, hibernate and read. But that isn't going to happen, because the holiday seasons are here and the other students here at the dorms are going to be setting up parties and such... as a likely result, I'll be hopping along for the ride and will still be tired at the end :P I want a (real) vacation.

In other news, I've read on /. that one of my most favorite TV series is being laid to rest for the time being. Information here. Dispite huge support from fans, since the TV series was cancelled years ago and even after the release of the movie (which I still have yet to see but had great reviews but not a blockbuster turnout... [official link] here) it seems that there wasn't enough mainstream support to get the thing off the ground. What can I say, (I feel like I'm writing a eulegy...) just watch it. Fire up e-mule or a bit torrent, whatever download or buy the DVDs.. just watch it. It's good... I just wish there was more.

Back from Tokyo

Back from a semi-conductor conference in Tokyo. 2 days, most expense paid trip to help the lab run booth at the exhibition hall. Totally under dressed, dispite one of the guys telling me to go "semi-formal" (which I even brought down to semi-casual). Whatever, suit or no suit, I did my job.

Snow this weekend, midnight snow ball fight, a little bit of shopping this weekend, lab meeting on Saturday as usual and it's back to the grind this monday.

Speaking of the grind there's something cute a friend sent to me-- coffee too pretty to drink, here

Enjoy!

Back to preparing another presntation for tomorrow. I wish my professors would lay off the presntations and let me do my work for crying out loud...

Screwed! Well not completly.... but mainly

I have a presentation this weekend, this Saturday in particular. You see, in this lab we have weekly meetings.... on Saturdays. This isn't the norm, it's just the lab that I decided to pick. That and it turns out I picked well... the lab is also quite good.

Well every Saturday, everyone attend these meetings where members (3 of them a week) are to present to the rest of the 50 members to the lab their work for the past ~3 months. Well great, I've been officially been a part of this lab since the beginning of October and I've gone though 2 research themes and was going to present my most current one (yeah we know where this is going...).

So I've been prepping for this presentation for the past 2 weeks (I was supposed to be done last week because I got the date wrong and started preparing a week early). So, well here I am, 2 days before the presentation... and decided to talk to my professor to hear what points in particular so I'd have my bases covered. Well what happened, is that my proff wants me to go and present my previous research theme as well to everyone because he thoght my research was indepth and so that I would not forget it. I have 2 days before my presentation dude! My presentation is already going to be long; I can already feel it. NB. I've already slaughtered a group of students in a robotics class with my monstrosity of a presentation... weighing in about 63 slides and 2 hours long and I am going to do this again?

Well I don't mind the talking part, it's just the preparation. Driving me batty. Thursday night and I was looking forward to getting this presentation of mine down just barely but up to snuff for this Saturday. I'm also scheduled for a tour of a micro-fabrication plant for tomorrow that is going to eat up a chunk of my day. Sigh...

I wonder I'm going to watch the sunrise from my lab... haw...

Alive and well

More than 2 weeks since my last post. I'm losing it, really. I'm at the computer all day reading and then running around running little experiments. Sometimes I wonder where my time goes. I'm at the lab late sometimes... sometimes I wonder how much I am getting done now a these days.

As usual, a lot has been going on. I've been in a fasion show, hit the onsen and saw the beautiful autunm leaves in Sendai. That was nearly 3 weeks ago. Today was a party in my room with Mike, EE Wen, Eun Young, Diego, Misha, Nannan, Li and more. Last week was the fashion show and badminton. The week before was volunteering for an English Speech contest.

Just to let you see what has recently gone on here's a picture from Nov 3, after making a trek to Yamadera with friends. Props to Kelvin and his wonderful camera... (I really want a nice camera now :)


EE Wen, Momo and me in the mountains.

Cheers all!

Infamy and Questions

It seems that some parts of my life in Canada also carries over to Japan. I don't know how or why, but news of me seems to travel around everywhere without me knowing. Why is that? I'll admit that I'm an odd ball, but somehow in random conversations, my name pops up. I think it's kind of funny. Oh well.

There is a difference between taking classes in Japan as compared to Canada or in the states. The difference is that students here don't ask questions. That and they don't seem to enjoy answering questions posed by teachers either. I personally believe that it has to do with some kind of inbread fear of being embarassed.

As for me, well when it comes to certain things, you could say that "I have no shame." This is especially true for asking stupid questions or doing stupid things. It's a fact, I do stupid things all the time. Just ask the audience. It's not a problem though-- it makes for some pretty good stories however.

But that's the thing, the thing I feel about Japan is that in formal situations with other people in a class. They are afraid of being stupid in the sense of not knowing the answer or asking questions. I am taking 6 classes now and in most classes I am the one that is asking the most questions. The interesting thing is that most of these Japanese people are kind of puzzed about this asian looking foreigner that can speak fluent English, that can sounds like a native Japanese speaker but can't speak proper Japanese half of the time. It has come down to the point where I do stand up and walk up to the chalk board and write out mathematically what I want to express. The students in the class were rather surprised at how bold I am. Well... even in Canada I don't usually walk up to the chalk board to write out what I am talking about in class... in Japan, it's sort of a necessity. As a result I have become some kind of spectacle.

What I would learn later is that news of me is spreading. Interesitngly enough, I started talking to random people in class from time to time and do hear that they know a few friends of mine in my lab... hence the news spreads. I find it interesting, so long as it's the good kind of news that spreads :) I'm all for that part.

Aside from that, it has been about 5 weeks since the beginning of my masters degree. I've finally settled on a project... the only problem is getting the ball rolling. There is a lot of equipment over here and the thing is that I need to schedule time with people to learn how to use the equipment. Ugh, time management was never one of my strong points. It still isn't either. How does one balance work and play? It's tricky. I play lots on the weekend and stay late at the lab during the weekdays. I haven't loafed around in a while.. which is a good thing I guess... (hence the lack of idle thoughts posts like I had done before the start of my masters).

On an interesting note. After getting into the lab, I have gotten fatter. I've gained back the 5 pounds which I lost at first when I first came in to Japan. The culprit being the fatty foods (ie deep fried foods) at the cafeteria that I've been eating everyday. Going to have to get myself off those foods because it isn't good for my health. Keep this up and I'll be comming home like a pumpkin. Not a pretty sight.

What has been going on here?

Well I have been holding off on making any posts because I was hoping to make some rather long posts (with pictures) catching up on what has been going on over here. I do have a long back log of pictures to post and thought it would be fun to throw them up. That just hasn't been wanting to happen the last few weeks and I don't know why. Perhaps a lack of motivation? Energy... I dunno. But anyways I thought I might as well post on how things have been going on here in text instead.

As busy as I sound, I am having quite a lot of fun in addition to doing my masters work (nothing concrete at the moment). The masters work itself (or at least the getting a thesis process it self, will explain later on). For the past 2 weeks, my life has consisted of getting to the labs in the morning, taking classes, reading papers and then heading out at about 6:00 pm to teach Engish to a few students on Tuesdays and Wedensdays. If I don't have to teach, them I'm here usually till about 9:00 pm reading papers or learning more about whatever ideas I have at the time or the Micro Electric Machines (MEMs) field in general. I have already filled 1.25 binders with reading material which I have downloaded the net.

On other days when I don't have to teach, I periodically head home and eat with friends, usually inviting them over for dinner or getting invited out for dinner, baking cookies and etc. Great fun. We have a guy named Mike over here from MIT that can make some pretty mean cookies and Thai curry. Damn good stuff, heck I ate too much of it that I ended up having a stomach aches the next day (since I haven't been eating really spicy food for a long time).

Weekends have been really busy as I have been doing something every weekend. 3 Weeks ago was something called an Imoni-kai in Japan. Which is where groups of friends head out to the rivers to cook a type of stew with Japanese potatoes, an assortment of veggies, meat and a sort of soup base (soy-sauce or miso depending on the region). The interesting thing is that only Miyagi and Yamagata (the neighbouring prefecture) are the only 2 prefectures in Japan that carries out this tradition. And the food was most excellent. I will be having an Imoni-kai party when I do come back to Canada to introduce everyone to this little Japanese event.

I have so far gone to 2 of these events, once with the international club and another time with a friend as guest for a tennis club. I have not played tennis in about 3~4 years but we had Imoni, beer and played tennis (beer has never tasted so good after a hard game of tennis!) During the same weekend it was some person's birthday whom I did not know, but got invited anyways out to the party. Ended up hitting a kareoke bar and then a club for the evening (the second time I've been to a club in Japan). Didn't get home till 4 am. Just as a note, Kareoke is awsome in Japan. Just because you can go with groups of 20+ people and there is a very wide selection of English music (much more than the selections than what I have seen back home when I did have the chance to go). That and when you pay $20 for2 hours of singing, that also include an all you can drink... all in you can drink as in booze! Crazy no?

The week after, on the Friday evening, the dorms here had a roof top party. Though instead of partying on the roof, I held a little party in my room and was up till about 5 am. The next day was a Korean friend's b-day party at the dorm were a bunch of friends and I would surprise her by all cooking a big lunch and crashing at her room. Yay, more food.

Finally, this week, I ended up going out with friends looking for a halloween costume. A friend of mine came up to me and asked me "Um this might sound weird but, where's the porn store around here?" since they were looking for some school girl outfits to wear. Can you imagine the horror of guys with really hairy legs in a short skirt school girl outfit? Scary indeed. I went as a kung fu master with blood and scars on my face.

Ps, if anyone knows how to remove tea stains, a bit of ash and a bit of melted red wax from a white silk shirt, please do tell me. I had a little incident where I got a white silk shirt (bought in Taiwan!) a little dirty and I've been trying like mad to remove a few marks. Gah, I've hand washed the shirt so many times... .

There were a few parties here and there and a little trip I took to a farm I took last month (pictures which I still need to post) and more misc things I have been doing that has been keeping me busy. Yes, lots of work and play. It's the way I like it... just wish the work part was getting a litte more progress however.

What's the itenary for this week? Nov 2nd, going out to a party with the masters students. The 3rd going out on a trip to check out the Autmn leaves in Sendai. This Friday going to be helping out with a Chinese dumpling party hosted by the lab and then on Sunday I'll be going to a hot Spring. Busy busy... in a good way.

No desire for the computer

I stare at my comptuer screen almost all day reading research papers. Right now, I still am in the process of getting a reserach theme down. I'm going to turn down a project for an implantable glucose sensor due to probably complications due to the human immune system most likely rejecting the device.

With that gone, that leaves me with one project one of my professors have proposed -- an electron beam lithography system using carbon nanotubes. Seems interesting but I am rather worried about the feasibility about the system using the proposed technique one of my professors gave me. How I hate to deal with uncertainty in research because I am going to be dedicating myself to a project for the next 2 years for my masters thesis.

So for the past 3 weeks, I've been doing nothing but reading reserach papers on a varety of topics in my field. Many of them on the computer but I've been taking the time to print things out and read them on paper (reading reserach papers on the computer is tiring... I can read entire novels on my computer but not research papers it seems). With all the reading I've been doing, I am getting pretty tired of looking at my computer monitor all day, meaning that by the time I get home, I don't really feel like updating the blog (as it requires me to stare at the screen some more while I write).

What about today? Well today is different because I went to bed at about 10:00 pm and woke up at about 4:30 am. After milling in bed till 5:00 am I was out. Took a miserable shower; the hot water was not on in the building and all I got was some luke warm water that was on the cold side. I was hoping for a nice HOT shower in the morning. Since it's getting cold in Sendai, much how it is like in Canada stepping out of the shower into the hall way on the way back to my room was horrible. I grabbed some food and in the lab by 6:00 am. So before I get tired of looking at the monitor all the day, I figured that I should do a bit of an update. And yes, I am in sort of a cranky mood at the moment.

Life has been busy here. I have been going to parties over the weekend. Hosting dinner get togethers during the week with friends and staying at the lab late from time to time. I can stay out late at the lab a few times a week but do it too often I get tired of hanging out at the lab during the day. (Heh, I even look for a secluded couch somewhere in the building to crash once in a while).

Well it's 7:30 am now... half awake. Going to take a quick break and then do something... which I don't know yet.

Oh how do I miss corny jokes!

Q: What do you call a guy that steals software?

A: You call them a pirate!

Q: What do you call a Swede (or a Danish) that steals software?

A: You call them vikings!

Oh how I miss these. What's going on here? Too many things, just way too many things. This evening I was over at Mike's room (from Boston) grabbing some dinner in the form of Thai green Curry, with Marek (German) and Ee Wen (Malaysian) and then we had a Swede that popped by from time to time named (I'm serious here) "Viking." As you can see, I had a great time playing with his name.

Muah ha ha ha ha.

It is now midnight and I am going to turn into a pumpkin. Good night, good night, to all a good night.

If I only had a brain!

There is an experiment going on over here at the university. What they call for are a bunch of native english speakers and do a fRMI brain scan of them while they take a look at *grammatically* correct sentences (hahaha, I can't spell... and some of you already know that my grammar can really suck sometimes... I hope I don't ruin their experiment :). What occurs after is that subjects will buzz in a yes or no depending on the passage.
The best part? I'll be getting a scan of my brain! Boo yah!

This is the response I got from the Secretary:

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I've heard a volunteer of fMRI scans can get copies of their brains.

(It was funny you said you want it for a souvenior!)

Let me ask Prof. Yusa about the copy of your brain.

I will tell you as soon as I get the answer from him.
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And there you have it. :)

Still Alive...I think

I knew exactly what would happen to me after the new term starts-- that was that the lab would be sucking me into a black hole of a world in time. I just didn't know it could get even darker then that too.

I'm just kind of tired actually. It's a 9 to 10 kind of job sometimes later with lab meetings and we have meetings on the weekend from 9 to 5, and those are *short* days too! I started classes in Japanese, ran a seminar (it was my turn) today, did some shopping to replenish cleaning equipment, soap and get some utensils.. hosted a party in my room the day before. Stuff like that. 10:30 pm now and It's the first time I had some time to myself.

Heck, my parents are even worried about me because I haven't been able to make the time to talk to them all week. It's a Saturday night... I think I'm going to spend it sleeping.

Taiwan pictures are going to have to wait a little... until I have a little more strength in me. 2.5 hours of cleaning today. I had to catch up on some cleaning since classes started up... now, time for some sleep!

Alive and busy!

Sorry for the lack of posts recently. I have been exceptionally busy; working and playing.

With Alex and the new international students in town, events and me now officially as a masters student at Tohoku University, it has become pretty busy on this end that I haven't had the time to make many posts. I have a (growing) backlog of pictures to post... got a dessert event I am hosting this Friday (yes, I do like to prepare in advance for events) a seminar to give this Saturday to some labmates (for which I have to review for) and I need to read papers to see if I can get a thesis project going.... in Japan you start your masters thesis research in your first year as opposed to your second year.

Well that sort of sums up what has been going on here (not really... but more posts perhaps after Sunday?)

Alive and really busy.... (and sleepy... we had a lab meeting that went till almost midnight yesterday. These people are nuts).

Oh yeah, one more thing. Vancouver Rules!